*Strong language, strong emotions- don't read if disturbing
Pain wants me to shut up
They want me to go back
Stay safe, smile and pretend I like it
Anger wants me to break their faces into small, bloody pieces
Loneliness wants me to drop the bravery and start begging
wants me to become flat
wants me to be silent
silent
silent
obey
Mistakes want to me shut the fuck up
They laugh in my face, shaking their fat faces
Bullies point to my mistakes
push me down
to them I am a piece of shit
silent piece of shit from Moldova
where is that even? they say
I am muted
I encounter people who take, take, take, take take and never give back
I encounter people who lie in my face
I am supposed to be silent
muted
be good, be giving, be kind
be the good
be the understanding
Is being silent good or is that
Conspiracy?
Stupidity?
Isn't that throwing years and years of screaming
down the fucking drain?
I will throw up
Rules want me muted
what is the use- you don't know, shut the fuck up
I speak this- not good, they say
I speak that- shut up, who cares?
I try to say that other thing
I realize I am muted
They muted me
I have no language
I have no voice
I am muted
Muted
Looking into empty eyes
Giving myself away
I hope the wind is strong today...
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