When did you learn to shut up?
The kind of shutting up which is not : kind, Zen, nor transcendental?
The kind of silence stepping in when :
-you are so hurt that speaking would take your life away
-no words have been invented yet to let you speak
-you mind has not stored yet that type of experience and needs to get it first
-the person whom you thought you can trust does something that pulls the rug under your feet like there was no rug before and you are like : what the hell did just happen?
-there is nobody to talk to, not even a self because they are all gone
-you are in a state of freeze, fight, flight
-the reality makes no sense - your mind cannot assign a meaning (words) to it so you just sit there waiting
-everybody else is shutting up EVEN if to a sane person things OBVIOUSLY are going south, and you are like : oh, so we shut up now, even if we are all crying inside, even if over there there are people decapitating other people?
When did you learn to do that?
There was a moment in our life when that happened.
Change it.
Learn the language of your heart and speak it.
The hears who speak the same language will get it.
XX, V.
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